''stANLEY ;;

how i wish you are by my side

2008-10-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

HELLO!
i am so dead la..
i have fallen deeply in love with NATALIE GOH YI XUAN all over again!!!
HOW?!!!! i just dont know why la..it is superrrrr hard to let go of her...): i want her to be my side): i really love her...hais...i cant take my mind of her!! i am thinking of her every single second..

every1 asked me why i love her so much..i just cant ans them cause i dont even have an ans for myself...al i can say is i have feelings for her...i dont know why...she can really have an hard impact on me...i am very serious in her...

i always tell myself to forget her but i just cant do that...i dont know why...GOD please give me an answer...why wont she give me a chance..

she told me its not a good time...so i shall wait...i hate her ex la...give her a bad impression..mayb thats her reason... i shall just sit here and wait for her..i will do that.. and think of her everyday..

everytime she msg me i will be damn happy dont know what's the reason but i just feel happy..but sometime she really reply damn slow.hais..i dont now la

LET NATURE TAKE ITS COURSE!

~LOVING HER ALL OVER AGAIN~

(:

2008-10-08T07:17:00.001-07:00

HELLO!
my day was quite okay...nothing much happened tday...

woke up at around 8plus...then went to use computer awhile..then went to bathe and off i went to meet jeraldyn to watch movie..then went home..use compute awhile more then went to meet buddy at amk hub...played arcade awhile then went to parklane to play pool and GUESS WHAT!!??

i saw natalie(: had quite a good pool game when i saw her(: haha..then went to walk at plaza sing awhile then went home...

still unhappy bout what happened to my bro but bo bian la...

~LLK18SYH~
momo

FUCK!!!

2008-10-06T07:47:00.000-07:00

hello...

cb..i am fucking pissed today...my brother kena whack...i confirm find them and whack them de...cb..they whack le still smash my bro's psp!!

knn

cbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb...i am really not happyyyy ah!!!!

KNNBCB!!!!FUCK!!!!

~LLK18SYH

MOMO~

2008-09-20T08:06:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!!(:
ytd didnt blog cause was out having fun(: hahah...ytd started the day by waking up at 6 then go charcoal to work then went home to change and meet NATALIE(:, LYNN*PINEAPPLE and 1 more girl la...we went to plaza singapura to catch a movie tgt(:

we went to watch THE DAYS! quite a nice movie...after the movie NATALIE keep caling me baby...WTH la ...hahah..but i really enjoy ytd

THANK YOU!!!(:

today was quite boring...work up at 6 again on a SAT! then went to work...work end le then go mrt ...saw XUN then he say he want to come my house...so h came then i accidently fall asleep...hahh

forget it la...i later mayb going buangkok! bye(:

~LLK18SYH~
MOMO

2008-09-17T09:40:00.000-07:00

Heys..
long time since i blog...hais...past few days have been quite fun and rough...haven had enough sleep last few days...and many things have happened to...i really dont know what to do la...

after me and her broke up...joey(lao ma) and jing heng(buddy) also brke up days after. i dont know what to do la...i had my own problems and jing heng always ask me help him when he is making the matter worse...nevermind la..i dont care anymore...I OVER WITH YOU!!!! you have changed alot after we broke up...you say to act like a malay girl. you start daoing me. but who cares. bet only your new bf (Gordan) cares only la...it is up to you la..its your life...i dont have to care anymore la cause i am over you...

CHERYL YEO KAI YING!!!! I AM OVER YOU!!!!!
;DDDD

Anyways..me and buddy joined LLK18SYH..my nickname is MOMO and buddy's is KIKI
(:

Going put new tatoo soon(: super excited la..HAHA..wonder who would be free to follow me go put...hahah...when the day comes then i see who free then ask them come along la..hahah

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...I OVER YOU!!!!!(: i dont care weather you want smoke..want to drink or what so ever...just stop acting like i still love you like that...i dont ok!!!!! Get that in you head...or do you need me to shout in front of every1...

i tmr got work...bored...hais...hate going to work la...ok la.i want go sleep le...bye!!!!

~OVER YOU!!!~
~LLK18SYH HUAT AH!!!!!~

);

2008-08-20T08:01:00.000-07:00

STANLEY'S HEART IS DEAD!

~DEAD~

2008-08-20T02:58:00.000-07:00

MY HEART IS DEAD!!!!
I LOVE YOU CHERYL YEO KAI YING!!!!
THERE'S ALOT I WANT TO TELL YOU!!!
WHY YOU HAVE TO TREAT ME SO COLD???!!
I AM NOT USED TO THE WAY YOU TREAT ME!!!

;(((((((

*BETTER BE DIE THAN ALIVE!

BORED!

2008-08-07T02:40:00.000-07:00

HELLO!
today went home quite early la..super bored.nothing to do la...was supposed to go mr rizal house to stay but he has to run some errands...

Today work was quite fun..hahah...but super tiring...
Sherleen jie today called me out of a sudden...just to ask me weather i got money to lend her..i dont know what to do la...suddenly tot then mayb its time not to contact her anymore..cause when she need to buy thing or lend money or anything that got to do with money then she come talk to me...like i am her ATM like that...i hate it...i miee thos time when she dont care bout money and when she haven join or hang out with gangs...):

Went to read HER blog today...feel sorry for her that the guy treats her that way...that guy is 1 of a kind la...SHE is such a good and nice girlf and he treats her like that!!! what the hell la...IDIOT GUY...

when i read HER blog...i really miss those time we used to hang out la..): now cannot meet her le): hais...whatever la!!! sometimes i ask myself weather i am doing the right time anot...i cant ans myself la...i hope whatever decisions i make will not end me in deep shit...

*HOPE GOD WOULD SEND SOME1 TO
GUIDE ME!!!

I"M BACK!!

2008-08-05T06:54:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!!!
haha...i'm back!! hahha...i will blog if i have time and have nothing to do la...hahah

GOOD NEWS!!! i dont have to go bukit batok everyday le(:
but i have to go somerset for WE(WORK EXPERIENCE). superrrrrr bored...

was in front office and housekeeping...it was fun but housekeeping was quite tiring la...was at front deak..got tip till $40+ la...

now in ROSETTE (the hotel restuarant)...damn tiring...but fun also la...haha...you know what...

Today damn angry la!! got this guest come in the restuarant..they ordered a steak and salmon and when the food come...they eat until so happy and in the end complain the food very hard and all la...i was thinking if very hard then why still eat until so happy??? IDIOT GUEST!!!

hahah...after work went to eat with MR RIZAL( SUPER COOL DUDE) and then went home...

Friday doing housekeeping...hahah

CANT WAIT FOR THURS>>GOING MR RIZAL'S HOUSE TO STAY!!!(:
haha.

*LOVING YOU ALWAYS!!(:

2008-07-28T09:12:00.000-07:00

2008-07-28T09:05:00.000-07:00

Busy..busy...and still busy

2008-05-22T06:58:00.000-07:00

hello...

wow...it's a long time since i blog man...sian...haiss....i am still loving HER...the pass few days i really cannot control myself from msging HER leh???this is very hard 4 me sia...my family all putting pressure on me and i am alr in the midst on breaking down...i really don't like it at all la...

today went chinatown to do project...walk super long la...haiss...after that went home alone..when i was smoking..i suddenly tot of HER...tot of those time again...i can think of it all day sia...although we went out 4 short while but it is really a wonderful memory with HER...haiss...everytime go bobo house i will start thinking of HER...i really want to die le la...breaking down anytime..

i am thinking of giving up studies la..very stressful la...got to cope with studies and then got to take family's pressure & thinking of ways to really make her happy...and willing to give me a chance...but i think it is reallly very hard 4 me...think she have some1 in mind ler..):

*IGNORING ME DOESN'T MEANS
I WILL NOT LOVE YOU!!!

*LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS!!

behind that smile & laughter

2008-05-17T09:13:00.000-07:00

heys...

was *ucking EMO last few days...

i cannot think of anything else now la...all i can think of is HER!!!!

and she is avioding me): really got no mood...why must SHE do that???didnt we had fun when we were tgt...haven i been sad enough??? she just dont know what am ii going through la!! why just cant she understand??? even if she didnt like me...at least dont avoid me la... there really no fate in us??? i really wish we can be tgt everyday...but i guess that will never come true la...i think she will either patch with the ex or mayb they are alr tgt la): i just want to know what kind of guy he is la...i dont know what to do la...i have been asking myself...why would she choose him???why wouldnt she give me a chance???

is there really nothing i can do???): i cannot do anything right now la...my mind is really full of her...when i recieve that very msg i really felt like crying but i just bare with it...cause i told myself i cannot cry...i really dont want this to happen!!!! i want to be like how we used to be....i really cannot take it...my heart is offically broke by HER!!! i dont want to survive anymore): is there anything else you can think of then avoiding/ignoring me??? mayb i just had so much confident in us being tgt...i shouldnt have tot so much. now that i have fallen too deep i really dont know how to get out of this...this feeling is worse than shaotong breaking with me...i am breaking down soon...i still need to put up a strong front in front of every1... alot of ppl dont know what i am going through..seriousl i am really breaking down!!!! help me ....

*SHE'S MY EVERYTHING

...

2008-05-15T01:42:00.000-07:00

hello...

sorry last few days never blog...yesterday wanted to but cause of my bro...my father took the broadband away...so sian la...last night class end at 8...SHE msg me awhile yesterday(: but after awhile never msg me le):

Sometimes i scare i say the wrong thing then SHE will ignore me..i dont want that to happen la...i got alot to ask HER...i want to ask HER weather when SHE meet me and out with me..is SHE happy anot???i also want to ask her weather is she in love with him...and alot more...but i just dont have the courage to do that la...haiss........

today class was quite fun...end early today..suppose to go xun house but didnt...went to cut hair with ah heng(daddy)...then went home le...later i going to meet ah heng(daddy) then go enuos dont know do what la...then he coming my house to stay...

I FEEL LIKE MEET HER & I MISS HER!!!!!):

haiss...but she don't seem to be replying my msg...so cannot...haiss):

nevermind la...she want to like that i also cannot do anything..

so boring....argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*I HAVE SO MANY THING TO SAY TO YOU

BUT MOST OF ALL IS I LOVE YOU!!!

....

2008-05-12T06:58:00.000-07:00

hello...

went to sku...study then suddenly my clasmate tell me china got earthquake!!

then so good la..then most of all the china people can go home la...then tcher still give us project...sian la....

went town with ah heng(daddy) after sku...bought bag...then played pool..then went home...

whole day wasnt in any mood to do anything...my mind was full of her...i dont know what to do la...msg her also no reply ...i really cannot take it la...i turly want to forget her..but i cant...it is alr enough diffcult to get over shaotong...now come HER!!! i really dont know what to do l....ARGH!!!

i want to die le la!!!idiot!!!*UCK!!!!!!! LYNN(PINEAPPLE) told me something that is really true...i cannot control what SHE decide la...also heard then SHE like this guy very long le...my efforts and chance all down the drain...haiss....i just cant get her out of my mind...i cannot stop myself from thinking/ msging her!! I CANNOT TAKE IT!!! in class i got to act as if nothing happen and come home still have to face my family..i want to be alone!!!! i want to cry le...IS THERE REALLY NO WAY 4 ME TO FORGET HER!!!! just hope she understands how i feel and all...but i jus thave to keep it to myself...i missed those days where we meet and have fun and laugh tgt espically that very day under blok 113!!! i really want it to come back...i never felt that happy after shaotong broke up with me la...i really enjoyed every single moment with her!! GOD!!!! i really hope that she would understand...i really want her to be happy no matter who is she with...but seriously if i am with her..i want her to feel the happiest woman on earth and make her feel like she is on top of the world...i think i shall cancel the planning that i have done la..somethime i really dont knows what is she thinking.I WANT TO KNOW...):

*MISS EVERY SINGLE SECOND
WITH HER!!!)))):

another day...

2008-05-10T19:47:00.001-07:00

hello.
just came back from bobo's house...went green then ride to his house...
so tired and my mind is just full of her): i think i have fallen to deep):
i really don't know what to do now...some1 please tell me what to do!!!!!!

i have to cover my sadness as every1 know i am joker); if i don't smile or joke...they wil think something is wrong..but actually sadness are taking over...just wish she would understand what i am going through..heard she likes her ex...and thats very bad..that news have alr hurt me enough..why she still want to treat me so cold??? i just wish we could be like last time...everyday msg...everyday joke and all...but those are just memories..i have be trying very hard to please you, make you happy and all...i just want you to be happy..if you patch with him...i really wish you could last long with him and be HAPPY!!! On your birthday i have a surprise 4 you...i have planned it for quite awhile..cracking my brain to think...i have thoughs bout forget it...but i think i want to make it happened...just hope everything goes to plan lor...and most of all you will like it..i dont mind giving up just to make you happy...to make you happy i am willing to put my life on the line i also dont mind...i just want to see your beautiful smile everyday..i really hope you are willing to give me a chance!

*HER BEAUTIFUL SMILE WILL
ALWAYS BRIGHTEN UP MY LIFE

);

2008-05-09T21:43:00.001-07:00

heys..last few day was really tiring..so didnt blog):

last few day was also damn down & sad);

wed-went to sku till 8, came home and did nothing

thurs-went cycling with ah heng(daddy) to jalan kayu

friday-went to hougang green and went to meet syu to eat prata

Really *ucking sad la!!!

SHE cannot msg...or mayb she don't want to msg me...SHE treats me so cold and all la):

having the feeling that SHE likes some else!!!

really not in th mood to blog...going off le...got work later!!

i want to really thanks LYNN(PINEAPPLE) for being there 4 me when i really need advise!

THANKS!!!!

*mayb i am just thinking too much

but I REALLY LOVE YOU-NGYX

you dont know how much i love you

(;

2008-05-03T08:15:00.000-07:00

hello(:

yesterday was too busy so cannot blog...haha...

yesterday i recieved msg that makes me happy(: hahah...i waas like so moody yesterday..so decided to go bobo's house to ton...hahha...we play boxing and sparring...stupid shah kicked my leg...damn pain la...hahah...now still pain la-.-

Morning went to meet HER to pass her cig...then went off...then after that went breakfast with sister and parents..then went to play soccer....then came home get ready to go meet HER!!!(: This few days are a few day that i will never forget and be happy(: cause i get to see HER!!!;DDDD OH MAN, I JUST LOVE HER!!!(:

Meet her at compass then went to slack and all la...then PINEAPPLE send me some of HER pictures...so kind of her la...hahha...BUT i still enjoy most is that i can spent time with HER!!!(:

haiss...each day pass i fall in love with her more la!!! Just jope she gives me the answer that really makes me happy...hahah...this few day she keep headache..very worried 4 her la):

After meet ler..i went to work and work was ok...starting head was super giddy la): then after awhile ok ler...then carry on lor...haha...then walked home..and then use com.

*LOVING HER MORE & MORE EACH DAY PASS(:

NOTHING BETTER TO DO):

2008-04-30T08:18:00.001-07:00

hi.i'm back...haha...

just now went to my brother's sku to find the person...couldnt find him...so ask my bro call him meet me at sengkang blk113 de senior citizen corner...meet him...talk abit then finish ler..so sian la...hahah...after that at there slack awhile then decided to go mac eat ..then went to meet HER(: so happy la...haha...we bought cig tgt...then went to smoke under 1 blk...forget what blk ler...hahha..after that SHE had to go off cause she meeting her friends to study...so guai la SHE!!(: meet my bro and my sister cabbed back home then went to get mc ..then went to eat at serangoon ...damn yucks la...dont ever go there...blehhhhh....hahah...went home...wanted to watch movie but no ticket so cancelled...haiss...now waiting 4 HER to call me(:

*THINKING OF THE MOMENT WE SPENT TGT!!

SIan ah!!!!!!):

2008-04-29T19:53:00.000-07:00

hello again...
yesterday was to tired to blog so didnt...

yesterday bought joey(mummy) go do her hair extention with ah heng(daddy) thenwhile mummy doing her hair extention...me and daddy went to play pool..didnt have the mood to play..keep kena thrash by daddy...then i paid then went to heartland mall to walk...daddy went to body shop take all the perfurm and spray all over his body la...so smelly la...haha...after mummy do finish...they pangseh me la...they all go home...so went to meet my sister...waited 4 1 hr+ 4 my sister la..): then went to bobo blk to slack...hahas...then saw HER(: my sister at last met HER...haha...i tot of a very good idea la...cannot wait to make it happen(:

today

Woke up at 645...bathe eat...had bloody gastric damn pain la...didnt care it...went to meet daddy...then went to sku...when meet daddy...my gastric was gone..then went lesson start still ok...but when tcher gave break...went down that time...gastric start to come back...damn pain la...so decided to go home...wanted to tell the tcher but the tcher took to o long to come back to class...so i took off 1st...at least i call kris(in charge of my batch)...told her...so on friday i need to hand in a mc...means later i have to go see doctor):

haiss...so damn sian...was using computer..my brither suddenly called..and then he tell me that got ppl throw things at him...cb...that guy sure die de...later mayb going down his sku...THAT GUY IS DEAD MEAT!!!!

anways...i miss HER~!!):
Thurs cannot meet her): sian la...tot public holiday can go out with her...haiss...nevermind la...on firday she have exams...hope she pass every sublect with flying colours ah!!!(:

*LOVE HER!!!

HAPPYHAPPY!!!!(:

2008-04-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

hello once again(:

haha...my blog very nice la...thanks to GILLIAN GOH!!!!(:

thank you!!!(:

anyways today woke up at 630...was too lazy to get out of bed so tired la.but managed to wake up at 645...quickly bathe and drink my milo(: haha..and left the house to go to sku...so i meet ah heng(daddy) at ard 715 ah... and then went off to sku tgt....haha...

sku was quite ok...but was too down and tired to study...so didnt listen in class much...at least i copied some notes(: hahah...which i dont always do...hahah..was msg HER and PINEAPPLE...then SHE asked me to go meet them...so was so happy ...so waited 4 daddy to send joey(mummy) home then faster cab home with daddy and xun...

Got home bathed then rush out of the house...then cab to sengkang...was suppose to meet them at compass but then they said they wanted to go riveralve plaza..so dropped daddy at compass then went to meet them...was so happy to see HER la(:

After we meet ...PINEAPPLE wanted to go find some1 but wasnt there...so walked to some blk and stop at a blk near some basketball court casue PINEAPPLE saw 'SOME1'...so slacked under blk...after awhile daddy say want to meet so ask him come to the place where i was...then he couldnt find me ...so i decided to shout like a mad man...daddy also was shouting la...hahha...

After i found daddy... i intro them to each other...then walked to plaza...then got this CB guy walk bang until me don't know how to say sorry de la...scolded him then contiune walking...when reach plaza...my sister was there also ...wanted to see HER..but she was scared of my sister la...so didnt ...waited 4 bus with PINEAPPLE, HER and daddy.....then SHE had to leave so she left 1st...so waited 4 bus with PINEAPPLE and daddy...tehn went to meet my sister,bobo & co.

then they was playing card so police came over to screen us...checked our ic then wanted to check our body...luckliy i put my cig into my sister cig box..then daddy more lucky..he had 2 box of malaysia or indoensia de cig lucky the police never see until..haha...check our HP imei number...

After that daddy& me went to buy pen and other things la...then went to meet them again at mac...bouht ice lemon tea...drink abit then left...cab back home...

*LOVING HER THE MOST(:

HOPE TO BE WITH HER SOON

2008-04-27T01:25:00.001-07:00

today is super sian la...
Morning went breakfast with my parents...saw jennifer said hello..after then went up to eat prawn noodles...then LAOBU show stupid attitude...show her back attitude then LAOPA scolded me but i just ignore him...cause it wasn't even my fault la...when i was young, she told me that eating cannot keep moving place...then i told her that then she start showing her **** attitude...haiss...
After that ...LAOPA drove me to Punggol to meet Jasper to fetch me to Marsiling Sec Sku to play soccer....Jasper came to the bus stop pick me up then went to put up my other to teamates and headed to Marsiling...was almost late 4 the game ...but lucky wasn't...hahah...the opponent was super easy la...but i didnt had a good game...haiss...nevermind..at least i scored a goal(: but was super tyco also...after the game ...took a shower and then jasper send me home..
After reached home...on the com and went to take a shower again and get ready 4 work later...super sian la...haiss..then went to use com...played Solider Front ...lose by 1 game la...they super tyco...hahah...nevermind.. hahah...i very good de...From today cannot msg her sia...her card got no more money...want to top up 4 her but she later angry so didnt...
ok...i shall end here 1st...see later i free not to blog..hahha
BYEBYE!!!!
*LOVING HER EVERY SECOND